NOBODY.. NOBODY.. BUT..

I AM NOBODY TO ANYONE..

PASSING TRU DAYS.. READING ALL SORT OF BLOGS.. I WENT TRU MY EX'S PAGES.. READING.. HOW THEY ARE ALL MENTIONING BOUT THEIR LIFE.. SOMEHOW I REALIZE.. HOW NOT REAL I AM TO ANYONE.. I READ HOW THEY CONFESS THEIR LOVE TO THEIR LOVER.. THEIR EX.. TO THEIR LOST LOVE.. BUT I NEVER PART OF IT..EVEN BEFORE WHEN WE ARE STILL IN RELATIONSHIP. MAYBE IM JEZ PART OF THEIR JOKES. SOMETHING REALLY NEED TO BE FORGOTTEN.. ITS NOT THAT I WANT IT BACK..NOR I WANT THEM BACK.. BUT.. HOW PATHETIC I WAS IN LOVE BEFORE BOTHERS ME.. I DONT MIND IF PEOPLE DIDN'T  TREAT ME RYTE.. OR CHERISH ME LIKE ALL GURLS LOVE TO.. I NEVER THOUGHT ANY OF MY RELATIONSHIP WOULD HAVE A DEAD END.. IM ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT I WILL END UP MARRYING THE GUY N HAVE A WONDERFUL FUTURE AHEAD ME.. STUPID ME.. 

SELF PITY POST LIKE THIS IS NOT HELPING ANYTHING.. I LOST MYSELF IN THIS BATTLE SEARCHING FOR SOULMATE.. NOW IM FAITHLESS. I HAVE NO TRUST IN RELATIONSHIP.. EVEN MYSELF.. I COULDN'T ACCEPT MY OWN SELF.. IM JEZ AN INVINCIBLE CRICKET OF A BIG FIELD.. NO ONE WILL EVER NOTICE.. APPRECIATE ME? LAST THING THEY WILL DO..